3 posts tagged “pregnant”

Why does being pregnant mean that every day is like life with a terminal illness :( ?  I am still very sick all the time.  I am eating more just really small portions.  Sometimes no matter what tricks I try to pull or what I eat or do I still end up bawled up cry and wishing I wasn't constantly feeling like I want to just sleep and wake up when the baby comes lol.  That is not an option so I guess I will just keep hoping for some relief someday : ).  I have been reading this really good book that my cousin let me borrow.  Its called Redeeming Love:

Redeeming Love

Francine Rivers

Its a story based on the book of Hosea in the Bible.  It isn't one of my typical books I read.  Usually I like things that have no plot and have really deep hold your breath life is so (insert adjective) ....  This one is good though because its obvious the parallel of the Bible story and I say if you are a fan of love stories and the Bible check it out : ).  I have been setting small goals for myself to return to normal-esqu life.  For example I have been catching up on my manga reading.  I have a subscription to Shojo Beat and I am still in the March issue.  I also have been journaling more (again).  I have been kinda reluctant to do it since the whole "suedehead" incident but I need to do it.  I have been trying to periodically update a journal for my baby too.  I have been trying to spend more and more time with my family lately.  As most of you know my family was not too keen on my situation at first.  I am hoping they are coming around. I like being able to talk to my mom so much an not fight with her.  Its really enjoyable.  I am very lucky to have my family so close.  When I think about having this baby it scares me so bad sometimes.  I am also so excited too.  I just wish I could have a proper belly : ).  I still haven't figured out what to do about my cats.  I guess I need to start asking around to see if anyone wants them.  I will miss them so much.  Thank God I will still have Dumbledoore and Marilyn.  Something cool that happened the other day.  I was at a restaurant and I looked out the wind and there was a mommy and daddy Cardinal and a nest full of baby birds.  I couldn't get a good picture of it but it was amazing. (look for the orange beak in the branch... thats the mommy)

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One other thing I have been doing lately when I am up to it is play my DS again.  I ran out of games to play.  I get mad when I play Animal Crossing like its my life and then I forget for a week and everything is destroyed.  I got the Harvest Moon Fantasy game but its flipin hard and I am tired of watering stupid crops. I let Nicole borrow it and she let me borrow her Professor Layton and the Curious Village.  It is a fun game.  Its challenging but not too hard.  I like the music in it a lot.  It reminds me of the sweet parts of the theme to Silent Hill.  If you have a DS I recommend it.  Speaking of Animal Crossing... I am going to be doomed when they release it for wii.  I love to play it on the game cube so much and when the wii has it I think it will be one of the happiest days of that year.  I hope they release it soon.  Anyways, I am a huge dork.  Hope everyone else is having a great Thursday. 

I didn't realize being pregnant would make you soooo sick.  I have been almost bedridden the past couple of days.  It has made me miserable at work.  The doctor says it should hopefully pass.  So as soon as I found out about being pregnant I knew it was important to eat as healthy and organic as I could so I went grocery shopping.

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I just hope this nausea will go away soon. Thankfully my cats have been glad to help me take naps and Grey has been really helpful.  He is actually doing my laundry for me at his house as I write.  I hope everyone has had a good week.

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I don't know how much energy I am going to have to post this but here we go... Most of my vox friends will recognize Erica, I have been posting stuff about her for about a year or so now.  I have to say I have always tried to be a good friend to her.  For some reason though, she has decided to just turn her back on me and start talking all this shit about me to people and telling people my secrets.  I am so hurt.  I never thought someone would be that mean.  Luckily I had someone on the inside telling me what she was doing and she didn't know or doesn't know that I knew. 

Another thing crazy.  I am pregnant.  Really Really pregnant.  Like have been pregnant for 2 months... I just found out on Wednesday.  The father is my ex, Grey.  When I realized I first felt in shock.  I just can't believe it!  I told Grey and I thought he would be mad at me, but really he is so excited.  I am glad he is not being negative, I need that.  I told my Mom and she screamed at me and told me I needed to "take care of it" I am not even going to utter what she was suggesting.  It is just to awfull to say.  I hope it was just shock and craziness and not her true feelings.  It was the most hurtful thing she has ever done to me.  I feel really scared but I am putting this in God's hands.  I always wanted to be a mommy so I am excited about that.  Please pray for me.  I feel like the kid picked last in gym right now.